Lesley: Mirrors and Anvils

My daughter has begun taking dance classes at a local studio. There are mirrors everywhere. 

Boy, oh boy. What a shock to the system to look up and not realize that person you see across the room is your own reflection...because you are even larger than you realized. 

I'll be honest. I lost momentum after a few days. I stopped wearing my fitbit, and caring about food choices. (We're not even going to talk about exercise.) 

Tonight was a much-needed wake up call. I've been feeling crappy (mentally and physically) for so long and then today I actually did not recognize myself. Talk about an anvil. 

I've been a shell of myself (albeit a hulking one, lol) for so long that I guess I shouldn't be surprised. Still, it really hit home that I've lost me (thanks to depression) and if I want any chance of ever again finding that creative, happy girl who was so full of life then I have to get healthy. 

ASAP. 

Emily Day 3

So far, so good. I wont pretend that its been perfect, but I'm making progress. That's honestly all i care about. The first day was hard. My eating wasn't great. I ate some junk. Yesterday was better. Today is going well.
In the past, I've struggled for the first 4 days. I'm being gentle with myself as I make this transition.
Another thing i noticed before is that i spend the first few days peeing like crazy. I got up twice last night and I don't normally get up to pee. Ive gone 6 times today and will probably go 2-3 more times before the day is through. My typical number of pee breaks is 4-5 each day.
I often struggle to eat or drink enough. While I'm transitioning off starch and sugar, I'm also trying to gradually increase my water consumption. I need to improve my meal planning and follow through with cooking and eating as well.
I am feeling energetic and happy. I haven't been hungry. I've worked out every day so far. I'm excited to be doing this!